A former co-worker who has 3 young children was talking to me about a recent trip that she took to California , she was talking about how it was so different for her girls to be in an atmosphere where there were a lot of people, fast cars and so much going on. It made me think about how things are here. Jake sometimes says that it is like New York City here compared to other islands he has spent time on. I feel that it is busy and hectic, but wouldn't say feels like New York. It is difficult to see how people can come and “chill out” here. A lot of people these days don’t know how to “chill out”. I guess that could be the reason, this is their stop between busy and true “chill time”. It has been hard to have down time here. Jake and I do work a lot and I regret not taking more days to sit on the deck of our boat and read a good book, or just sit and contemplate life. I need to be better about that. I need to have more “me” time. I think I am craving that time. With all the technology, phones, computers, TV, and movies being such a constant in my life I don’t even remember what it feels like to get away from it. I’m excited to go sailing and not always be worried about what to do…we will be forced to have that time to just read a book, play a game together, or just have a nice contemplation of life.
I had the opportunity today to take a little "me time". I have been going to the chiropractor for about 8 months to receive treatment for my back after injuring it at work. I go in for an adjustment do some physical therapy exercises then they put me on this massage machine. I lay there for 12 minutes and just relax. Most the time I never stop thinking and thoughts of work just overwhelm my mind. Today was different. I laid there and just rested my mind. I rested my body and just stayed in the moment.
When I finish work at the end of the day I feel exhausted. I feel like I have just spent every second of my day talking to people, doing computer/paper work, and being the go to person for many things. I read an article today about stress, and it talked about how not relieving stress can cause a lot of other problems. At the end of the day I am relieved to be home, but I don't think I ever release that stress. That is where writing is going to come in. I am making a goal to write more. To be more sincere and personable. I am making a goal to let it all out when I write... and that will be my "me time/ chill time".