Sunday, September 16, 2012

Creativity Come Back To Me




“Around here, however, we don’t look backwards for very long. We keep moving forward, opening up new doors and doing new things, because we’re curious… and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths.” — Walt Disney
 



My creativity used to spike when I would look through a camera lens, when putting an outfit together, while painting a canvas, writing a story or doing my hair.  I used to see inspiration all around me.  Lately I have felt that my mind is on pause.  It may be because I have put up a shield trying so hard not to conform to what is around me.   We call this island “Never Never Land”.  People come here to not grow up.  They don’t come here to learn and grow.  They come here to get away from reality and keep to their constant life.  To me, and to Jake this is frustrating.  Jake and I are two people that start to go crazy if we are not learning, fixing, growing, exploring, or doing something to move us forward.  We thrive on the fulfillment of success.  We strive for more, yet right now we feel a bit trapped.  I think I have paused my mind because I am being so careful not to conform, I want to stay who I am and when we get the chance I want to be ready to open my mind to the new chapter of our life.  I know I can’t keep my mind on pause, I really try to continuously learn and grow, and it has just been difficult here. 
I have decided I need to go on a “mind cleanse”.  A negative cleanse.  I need to focus on the positive things about this island, about our life on this island and enjoy it for the next little bit.  I need to find that happy medium of security against conforming, and opening up to the positive things around me.  Even living in a beautiful place going to work at the beach everyday, it turns into the norm.  It doesn’t take your breath away after a while, it just becomes the usual day, another day doing the same thing.  I need to get out of the monotony I need to get my mind out of the humdrum and spice it up.  I think this negative cleanse will help. I curious to see how it turns out and see if it brings back my creativity.   

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