Have you ever had the feeling that you can't take a full deep breath because of all the stress you are experiencing? You almost feel like you are holding your breath to hold back the emotions so you don't break under the pressure. Yesterday and today have been those kinds of days for me. If i do take that deep breath I will just start crying. I won't know why I am crying but I will cry. I will think it is ridiculous that I am crying because I know everything is going to work out because it always does. I feel frustrated that I get so emotional over some things but I think I need to go back to some of the coping strategies that I learned going to therapy after Taft died. It's OK to cry. Telling myself not to think about an issue or situation is just going to make my mind think about it more. Holding the tears is just going to make them stronger and overflow.
I'm going to go purchase some new work out clothes, and find an outlet to relieve my stress... along with writing. Wow I have a lot to do today but I feel motivated to release these stressful feelings.